tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-15376303483467195342024-02-20T20:39:02.202+07:00I, Me, MyselfEverything that's on my mindPurple Loverhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10245935419710199110noreply@blogger.comBlogger121125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1537630348346719534.post-54567497259759948272012-09-11T17:20:00.000+07:002012-09-11T17:20:43.148+07:00Me (2012)Learning and knowing are 2 different things.
Knowing about what you think you know about you and knowing what you are also two different things.
I am now..in the step of learning to knowing what & who i am...beginning from what i think i know about myself..i now surely know that:
- i am a very independent person, who dislikes being told what to do or how to do things..I'd rather find out the wrong way first then doing short cuts
- i dislike being told that i can't do something because it's not for me...if i think and i know it's right for me to do it, I'll bare the consequences...but no way i will step back first without trying.
- i am a free person...in terms, i like things my own way..selfish? perhaps...but i don't care, as long as it doesn't hurt other people in any way..
- i easily forgive someone, but not easily forgetting the hurt people caused me. in that case, people who hurt me will have a really difficult time in dealing with me..i don't back off easily and i don't intend of showing mercy...*evil laugh*
- i don't like being put as #2 or 3 or whatever number other than #1. in terms, if other people are talking to me, working with me, being with me, i don't expect ignorance. I need focus, attention and dedication..as i will do the same to others.
- i can give my time, dedication & heart 300% to the people i love, care and respect..
well, so far..that's me. if i know more about myself, I'll write again.Purple Loverhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10245935419710199110noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1537630348346719534.post-72450375991909437012012-07-18T14:25:00.002+07:002012-07-18T14:25:20.639+07:00random thoughtsit's been ages since i last write here...
a lot of things changed, a lot of things happening
but some things never change, too
i found a new encouragement in my life, and since 2...going on 3 years now, i just dedicate my time, mind, and soul to my family, my loved ones & my not-so-new-bonded-baby brothers...
i know i only write in here just as a cry out from my mind & heart...but starting now, if i write it would only be for about those three important factors in my life...
120718Purple Loverhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10245935419710199110noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1537630348346719534.post-87236397967063997432010-07-01T20:56:00.000+07:002010-07-01T20:59:03.621+07:00aku sungguh lelahSungguh lelah...<br />Lelah hati, jiwa, ragaku<br /><br />Rasa tak sanggup<br />Tak ingin lanjutkan<br />Tak ingin bergerak<br />Kecuali ke masa lalu<br /><br />Lelah<br /><br />Aku lelah<br /><br />Sungguh lelah<br /><br />010710Purple Loverhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10245935419710199110noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1537630348346719534.post-60149147707555349082010-06-08T14:55:00.000+07:002010-06-08T15:26:33.225+07:0013...is my lucky number13...<br /><br />Some people say it's a bad luck number...<br /><br />Not for me...<br /><br /><br /><br />Today...my sweet baby boy turns 13...<br /><br />Today...my sweet baby boy<br /><br />becomes a young teen, 13 years of age<br /><br />Today...my sweet baby boy starts his new phase in life..<br /><br /><br /><br />I thank God for giving us, you...the light, the breath, the love of our lives<br /><br /><br /><br />Be a good gentlemen<br /><br />Be a wise man<br /><br />Be true to yourself<br /><br />Be what you see yourself want to be<br /><br /><br /><br />No other presents will matter as much as the moment I have you... <br /><br />No happiness will compare than to see you happy<br /><br /><br /><br />Happy birthday mas Farrel<br /><br />Happy 13th birthday...<br /><br /><br /><br />Mama-papa love you very much...<br /><br /><br /><br />08-June-201Purple Loverhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10245935419710199110noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1537630348346719534.post-30260376523768527292010-06-02T11:02:00.000+07:002010-06-02T11:14:52.456+07:00Sampai kapan terkejar masa lalu?Langkah kaki menapak maju<br />Kian menjauh dari masa yang lalu<br />Tapi hanya dalam sekejab<br />Aku tertarik kembali ke dalam sesak<br /><br /><br />Sampai kapankah aku begini?<br />Terkalahkan oleh masa lalu??<br />Takut menatap ke hari depan<br />Takut pejamkan mata <br />...untuk mendapatkan kau tak lagi ada<br />Karena kau asyik masyuk ke dalam masa lalumu<br />Tak melihatku dalam nyata<br />Tak pedulikanku dalam realita<br /><br /><br />Memang aku tak menuntut balas apa-apa<br />Tak pula berani berharap<br />Hanya akan selalu simpan sakit dan perih ini<br />...dalam-dalam, terkubur di rongga terdalam hatiku<br /><br /><br />Sampai kapan aku akan selalu terkejar oleh masa lalu??<br />Sampai kapan??<br />Nyata di depan mata, tak tampak<br />Yang kasat hanyalah masa lalumu...<br /><br /><br />-yang selalu dikejar oleh masa lalumu-<br /><br />020610Purple Loverhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10245935419710199110noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1537630348346719534.post-68989526886317568192010-05-27T17:52:00.001+07:002010-05-27T18:45:59.312+07:00Jejakku, sesakkuSejenak ku tarik nafas<br />Dan kuhembuskan<br />Terasa..<br />beban berat masih tertinggal<br /><br />Jejak langkah kakiku<br />Menapak di lembaran baru<br />Yang penuh hempasan,<br />..kerikil tajam,<br />..ungkapan rasa yang terpendam,<br />Tetaplah harus tampak seimbang<br />..Tak boleh terhuyung<br />..Tak boleh ada butir airmata<br />Harus tetap tampak senyum di wajah<br /><br />Sesakku kini makin penuh<br />Tak kuasa kulepas<br />Karena tak bisa<br />Tak mampu ku usir<br />Karena akan tetap selalu datang kembali<br /><br />Masa yang lalu, <br />Sepoi angin mengelus lembut<br />Surai mentari memeluk hangat<br /><br />Saat kini, <br />Hembusnya adalah tamparan keras<br />Sinarnya memantik kobaran api amarah<br /><br />Jejakku, adalah sesakku<br />tak bisa lagi kurasa bayang kilas<br />hari di belakangku <br />Dari tempatku berdiri, hanya ada seringai senyum penuh palsu <br />Juga airmata yang tertahan untuk tumpah<br /><br /><br />Jejakku, sesakku<br /><br />270510Purple Loverhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10245935419710199110noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1537630348346719534.post-55101987915049546132010-05-23T05:44:00.000+07:002010-05-23T05:45:42.445+07:00selamat ulang tahun, yankTerimakasihku padaMU<br />KAU ciptakan dia sebagai buah hati ayah-ibunya<br />KAU satukan kami selamanya<br />KAU berikan kami kehidupan bersama<br /><br />Hari ini, cintaku terlahir<br />41 tahun yang lalu<br />Walau jarak memisahkan fisik,<br />hati terpaut selalu<br /><br />..<br /><br />Selamat hari ulang tahun, yank<br />Tiada hari tanpa doa untuk keselamatan, keberhasilan dan kesehatanmu<br /><br />Selamat ulang tahun, cinta<br />Terimakasihku karena kamu selalu berikan yang terbaik untuk ku dan buah cinta kita<br /><br />Selamat ulang tahun, my love<br />Semoga Tuhan selalu melindungi dan memberkati setiap langkah dalam hidupmu<br /><br />I love you<br />We love you<br />Terkhusus pada hari ini,<br />Tiada terkira rasa syukur dan bahagiaku<br /><br /><br />230510<br />For my love, my life<br /><br />*FB Notes*Purple Loverhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10245935419710199110noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1537630348346719534.post-69442908160977411012010-05-20T07:31:00.000+07:002010-05-20T07:37:23.730+07:00perihTiada yang spesial d pagi ini<br />Kecuali luka lama, terbuka kembali<br /><br />-perih<br /><br />-perih<br /><br />-perih<br /><br /><br />Kupikir sudah cukup waktu mengubur sakit itu<br />Ternyata,<br />Tak'kan pernah ada kata 'cukup' untuk menghapus<br />bekas luka itu<br /><br /><br />Dan perih terasa lagi<br /><br /><br />200510Purple Loverhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10245935419710199110noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1537630348346719534.post-44165530030383380142010-04-12T18:19:00.000+07:002010-04-12T18:23:46.327+07:00no longer in the same pageA new page has been turned<br /><br /><br />And I'm no longer in that same page as you<br /><br /><br />still, I wonder why...<br /><br /><br />Yet, I rather choose, I turn my own page<br /><br /><br />*still coping*<br />120410Purple Loverhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10245935419710199110noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1537630348346719534.post-15656501787691482502010-03-27T19:01:00.003+07:002010-03-27T19:11:13.971+07:00nothing changesI chose this path I'm walking on<br />I decided that I would love him<br /> and take my chances<br />Now, tears dried up <br />heartaches and sleepless nights<br /> ~but nothing changes....<br /><br />Is it because I'm too deep?<br />Is it because I can't loose him?<br />Or is it just because I won't let go....?<br /> <br />Walking through the rain<br />shaking in the cold<br />still trying to find his light<br /> ~but nothing changes...<br /><br /><br /><br />*still keeping hope for the best*<br />270310Purple Loverhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10245935419710199110noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1537630348346719534.post-6882223393505496122010-03-23T08:58:00.000+07:002010-03-23T09:10:38.678+07:00missing you...<br /><br />Miss my heart beat..<br /><br />.<br />.<br />.<br />.<br />.<br /><br />YOU<br /><br /><br /><br />230310Purple Loverhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10245935419710199110noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1537630348346719534.post-21441918455851873962010-03-19T12:55:00.003+07:002010-03-19T13:05:30.887+07:00I...My...I hurt but I love him<br />I cried yet I miss him<br /><br />My heart breaks and still looking for him<br />My mind is blank except for everything about him<br /><br />Decision is made for me<br />My words has no meanings<br /><br />I hurt but I love him<br /><br /><br />~too deep in love with you~<br /><br />190310Purple Loverhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10245935419710199110noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1537630348346719534.post-90835776335690960992010-03-18T22:06:00.000+07:002010-03-18T22:08:31.115+07:00n•u•m•bWords: lost<br />Tears: shed<br />Heart: broken<br />Body : ached<br />Soul : incomplete<br /><br />.....N U M B<br /><br />18031, Written in FB NotesPurple Loverhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10245935419710199110noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1537630348346719534.post-27758837098167462142010-03-06T16:55:00.004+07:002010-03-06T17:08:51.401+07:00keagungan cintaserak suaraku<br />sembab mataku<br />masih terdenger isakku<br /><br />takut:<br />akan kehilangan dirimu<br /><br />lelah:<br />masa lalu menjajaki kesempatan<br /><br />sakit:<br />mengingat terpurukku<br /><br />~namun <br />Cinta, membuktikan keagungannya kembali<br />Cinta, menguatkan kasihnya<br />.......membasuh luka lama<br /><br />-------<br /><br />Keagungan Cinta, memang akan terlihat<br />justru di saat-saat kelelahan dan kebimbangan<br /><br /><br />~tetap kan ku jaga keagungan cintamu bagiku~<br /><br />060310 - for 040310Purple Loverhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10245935419710199110noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1537630348346719534.post-55321295648086563762010-03-03T20:29:00.000+07:002010-03-03T20:31:05.376+07:00Do I have to.......<br /><br />Do<br />I have...<br /> To go thru the same pain again <br /> The same time as last<br />???<br /><br />Do I?<br />....<br /><br />*Bad..a very bad De Ja Vu*<br /><br />030310Purple Loverhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10245935419710199110noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1537630348346719534.post-51282511653898117112010-02-26T12:09:00.003+07:002010-02-26T12:51:52.466+07:00one will...everyone has their own paths to step on<br /> has their own winding roads to walk on <br />everyone has their own mountains to climb<br /> has their own valleys to overcome<br /> their own rivers and even oceans to conquer<br /><br /><br />all in common is that<br /> : all of us walk with our hearts and soul<br /> with no self confidence at the beginning<br /> with full of doubts to what is waiting in front<br /><br /><br />but the difference between each and everyone of us <br /> one will choose to learn along the way and know what is good for oneself<br /> while another choose to ignore everything and fall<br /><br /> one will gain their confidence, while others become too confident<br /><br /> one will learn to notice and learn about feelings of other<br /> while others choose to just crush everything that comes on their way<br /><br /> one will see the beauty of every scenery and remember it<br /> while others choose to forget<br /><br /> one will seek the moment and grab it, while one awaits<br /><br />no matter which road or paths we choose, it will always come to<br /> our own decisions, our own hearts, our own minds, and our own confidence<br /><br />but if we choose the wrong path, <br /> do we have the will to stop, and realize that it was wrong?<br /> do we have the will to mend?<br /><br />-200210-Purple Loverhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10245935419710199110noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1537630348346719534.post-74111670372866097642010-01-31T09:37:00.000+07:002010-01-31T19:44:36.819+07:00I just don't get it...??The grass is always greener on the other side,<br /> people say<br />Be thankful of what you have,<br /> they too, say<br />and yet, I agree to both...<br /><br />~but<br /><br />i don't get it when people rather choose<br /> the green grass on the other side <br /> than to be thankful of what they have,<br /> and leave...let everything go...<br /><br />Being alive is just only once,<br /> I hear<br />Live life to the fullest,<br /> they say<br />I, too, agree with that<br /><br />~but<br /><br />I don't get it when people gets their happiness<br /> by destroying someone else's<br /> just because they want to live their fullest<br /><br />Spice up your life, <br /> people told me<br />Be happy and just go for it,<br /> they encourage me<br /><br />~but<br /><br />I don't get it when people choose to go for it<br /> but ruin...destroy...what they have<br /><br />I just don't get it, when people hurt someone they love,<br /> someone who's been there in rough times<br /> and choose to end it<br /><br />I just don't get it<br /><br />310110Purple Loverhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10245935419710199110noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1537630348346719534.post-13763665354932934092010-01-15T17:09:00.005+07:002010-01-15T18:09:49.372+07:00I Love YouI 'm incomplete without you<br /><br />L ove came between us<br />O nce upon a time in when our paths crossed<br />V iolet will always be with you all the way through<br />E ven in your low, rough and tough moments in life <br /><br />Y ou give colors to my life<br />O n dark nights, you are the light<br />U nbelievably lucky to have you in my life<br /><br />~I Love You<br /><br /><br />150110Purple Loverhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10245935419710199110noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1537630348346719534.post-32354529853706852442010-01-11T21:14:00.004+07:002010-01-11T21:57:09.790+07:00two sides of a coinwe are two sides of a coin....<br /><br />: you hurt, i hurt more<br />: when you're down, i'm the string that pulls you up<br />: you bring the best in me<br />: when you cry, i wipe your tears<br />: when one of us is in anger, the other would have comfort and calmness<br /><br />: when i'm down, you cheer me up<br />: when in doubt, you make it certain<br />: when my days were blue, you give colours to it<br />: we are our lights<br /><br />we are two sides of a coin.....<br /><br />we won't be us without eachother<br />and we complete the puzzle<br /><br />~we are two sides of a coin<br /><br /><br />110101Purple Loverhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10245935419710199110noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1537630348346719534.post-64394433106501588692010-01-01T23:24:00.002+07:002010-01-01T23:29:37.910+07:00ternodaKala hati ternoda<br />mulut kehilangan kata-kata,<br />akal kehilangan bijaknya<br /><br />semua terdiam...<br />~membisu<br /><br />pekat, kelam, tak bernyawa<br /><br />Kala realita tak bisa dipungkiri<br />hanya harap dan asa yang dipijak<br /><br />:tetap tak meguatkan raga<br /><br />kemelut menyelimuti hati<br />~sesak, menghimpit<br />membuat makin tak berdaya<br /><br /><br />010110Purple Loverhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10245935419710199110noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1537630348346719534.post-51235168000051905482009-12-24T15:32:00.002+07:002009-12-24T15:39:33.017+07:00emptiness found meWhen you love someone, <br />you made your heart vulnerable<br />when you trust your life to someone<br />you decide that you are willing to get hurt<br />when you gave your heart<br />it's all without asking for something in return<br /><br />when your instinct tells you something<br />and you try to find proofs<br />you made your heart broken<br /><br />and...that's what i did...<br /><br />now... i feel numb...<br /><br />emptiness found me..<br /><br />from all the days out of 365 days...<br />it found me today...<br /><br /><br />2412209Purple Loverhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10245935419710199110noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1537630348346719534.post-14821110117948798552009-12-08T08:37:00.000+07:002009-12-08T08:39:56.131+07:00dua windudua windu terlampaui<br />isak tangis duka dan bahagia<br />mewarnai perjalanan kita<br /><br />segenap harap dan asa terucap <br />dan satu per satu mulai terwujud<br /><br />ombak kehidupan kita lalui<br />hempasan angin membimbang<br />dengan satu hati dan keyakinan<br />kita tetap menatap hari<br /><br />hamparan rumput menghijau di hadapan<br />layaknya sedang bersorak menyambut<br />langkah pasti kita berdua<br />membina cinta yang sudah ada......<br /><br />semoga doa dan asa yang terpanjat padaNYA<br />tidak hanya dua windu...tiga windu..empat windu...<br />tapi sampai maut memisahkan...<br /><br /><br />*mengenang 16 tahun awal kisah cinta dengan belahan jiwaku*<br />07-12-1993....adalah langkah awal dari apa yang kita miliki saat ini...cinta kita...buah hati kita...<br /><br /><br />07-12-2009<br /><br />*taken from FB Notes*Purple Loverhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10245935419710199110noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1537630348346719534.post-14108569908539067192009-11-29T07:42:00.000+07:002009-11-29T07:44:08.348+07:00Tersadar dalam diam....<br />Secercah sinar harapan itu<br />Akhirnya harus terpadamkan jua<br /><br />Suara tercekat<br />Kata-kata menghilang<br />Diam seribu bahasa<br />Menyadari:<br />cahaya lilin takkan kuat menghadapi hembus angin yang menerpanya<br />....dan akhirnya, padam<br /><br /><br />~281109~<br /><br />*FB Notes*Purple Loverhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10245935419710199110noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1537630348346719534.post-26212399246141453742009-11-28T18:53:00.000+07:002009-11-28T18:54:46.083+07:00embracing...My days has been cloudy this past month...<br />Didn't want to realize it<br />But this evening...<br />I was awaken by the person I love<br />And told me that I have to wake up and embrace the reality <br /><br />No matter how hurtfull it may be<br />No matter how much tears I would shed<br />It has to be this way...<br /><br />Embracing the reality<br />Embracing your love<br />Embracing the moments<br /><br />~I loved you yesterday, today and more tomorrow~<br /><br />281109Purple Loverhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10245935419710199110noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1537630348346719534.post-88221588924820776472009-11-16T06:16:00.000+07:002009-11-16T06:17:04.763+07:00Hanya KamuKala hati terasa sepi<br />Merasa sendiri<br />Bayangmu hadir menemani<br /><br />Kala gundah singgah<br />Membuat hati tak tenang<br />Bayang senyumanmu terkenang<br /><br />Dalam kesepian dan kegundahan,<br />Hanya kamu yang menemani<br />Tiada lain yang kumau...<br />Hanya kamu...<br /><br />1511Purple Loverhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10245935419710199110noreply@blogger.com0